John Keats


                Why Did I Laugh Tonight?

Why did I laugh tonight? No voice will tell:
        No God, no Demon of severe response,
Deigns to reply from Heaven or from Hell.
        Then to my human heart I turn at once.
Heart! Thou and I are here, sad and alone;
        I say, why did I laugh? O mortal pain!
O Darkness! Darkness! ever must I moan,
        To question Heaven and Hell and Heart in vain.
Why did I laugh? I know this Being's lease,
        My fancy to its utmost blisses spreads;
Yet would I on this very midnight cease,
        And the world's gaudy ensigns see in shreds;
Verse, Fame, and Beauty are intense indeed,
But Death intenser-Death is Life's high meed.

1819