Allen Ginsberg Ego Confession                       I want to be known as the most brilliant man in America     Introduced to Gyalwa Karmapa heir of the Whispered Transmission                     Crazy Wisdom Practice Lineage     as the secret young wise man who visited him and winked anonymously                     decade ago in Gangtok     Prepared the way for Dharma in America without mentioning Dharma--                     scribbled laughter     Who saw Blake and abandoned God     To whom the Messianic Fink sent messages darkest hour sleeping on                     steel sheets "somewhere in the Federal Prison system" weathermen                     got no Moscow Gold     who went backstage to Cecil Taylor serious chat chord structure & Time                     in a nightclub     who fucked a rose-lipped rock star in a tiny bedroom slum watched by a                     statue of Vajrasattva--     and overthrew the CIA with a silent thought     Old Bohemians many years hence in Viennese beergardens'll recall     his many young lovers with astonishing faces and iron breasts     gnostic apparatus and magical observation of rainbow-lit spiderwebs     extraordinary cooking, lung stew & Spaghetti a la Vongole and recipe                     for salad dressing 3 parts oil one part vinegar much garlic and                     honey a spoonful     his extraordinary ego, at service of Dharma and completely empty     unafraid of its own self's spectre     parroting gossip of gurus and geniuses famous for their reticence     Who sang a blues made rock stars weep and moved an old black                     guitarist to laughter in Memphis     I want to be the spectacle of Poesy triumphant over trickery of the world     Omniscient breathing its own breath thru tear gas spy hallucination     whose common sense astonished gaga Gurus and rich Artistes     who called the justice department & threaten'd to Blow the Whistle     Stopt Wars, turned back petrochemical Industries' Captains to grieve &                     groan in bed     Chopped wood, built forest houses & established farms     distributed monies to poor poets & nourished imaginative genius of the                     land     Sat silent in jazz roar writing poetry with an ink pen     wasn't afraid of God or Death after his 48th year     let his brain turn to water under Laughing Gas his gold molar pulled by                     futuristic dentists     Seamen knew ocean's surface a year     carpenter later learned bevel and mattock     son, conversed with elder Pound & treated his father gently     --All empty all for show, all for the sake of Poesy     to set surpassing example of sanity as measure for late generations     Exemplify Muse Power to the young avert future suicide     accepting his own lie & the gaps between lies with equal good humor     Solitary in worlds full of insects & singing birds all solitary     --who had no subject but himself in many disguises     some outside his own body including empty air-filled space forests &                     cities--     Even climbed mountains to create his mountain, with ice ax & crampons                     & ropes, over Glaciers--     San Francisco, October 1974